Mindboggled...
From Todaycollegetour
You know what gets me man? I am stuck in my head, all the time. It’s the only place I can be unless I check out completely. And I am really starting to worry about myself. I mean I get these paranoid sorts of thoughts. But it seems reasonable too. I mean I feel like I should be paranoid maybe. The predicament I’m in, I mean we are all in, it’s mindboggling. [Mindboggling?]
Yeah, mindboggliong – I mean, I don’t know the point. The point of everything. I mean a lot of people have some story about what the point is. And they pretty much don’t agree. I mean some of these stories people kill themselves while they also kill other people who don’t believe in their brand of the story. They think they are going to heaven to have sex with virgins for this noble act. Correct me if I am wrong here. {Nope} OK, cause I thought maybe I was crazy there. Right, so other people have some other story about how if they follow a handful of rules they will get to go to heaven. Oh and then there are some other loop holes that’ll get you into heaven if you say a really hardcore Sorry! for all the times you broke any of the handful of rules. But you have to say Sorry! just before you die. So, I guess a slow death is a bonus under that system, I mean what happens to my buddies who died in a drunk driving accident? They didn’t have any time to say Sorry.
What’s another story? OH right, these other people think that we’re infected with alien spirits. Luckily if you pay the owners of this belief enough they will “Audit” you until you are a better person and you then don’t have to pay them more money. Pretty weird but it sounds like the best offer I’ve heard so far.
Still, it’s not clear to me which of these stories is the real deal. They definitely don’t seem to have the same set of rules. Which brings me to why I am so boggled….There are people out there who I read about in a research article I psych class. These people spend a lot of their day meditating in a way that keeps that happy. And if they do this for long enough they actually develop happy brains. So basically, if you practice being happy, you become happier. The article said that your brain actually lights up differently in the fMRI tests, and all the happy parts work better because you practiced so much. But what the fuck is that? I mean what is being happy if you can just practice it and get it? Is being happy important or should I follow some rules or take some classes to make me a better person or just say fuck it all it doesn’t matter?
I know, I think too much. But I’m stuck in my head thinking and the only way we’ve slowed it down is by medicating me. Now that sounds fucked up to me. Doesn’t that sound f’ed up to you? Doesn’t that sound like something to be paranoid about. Just because I’m paranoid doesn’t mean that I’m wrong…right?
