Parents getting divorced, end of "perfect" family

From Todaycollegetour

I do. Two simple words. I love you. Three simple words. Words that in a matter of time can mean nothing to the two people who spoke them to each other. Marriage, I used to think that it was the best thing that could ever happen to two people who were in love. Especially when those two people were my parents. My parents, there not supposed to be apart, that's not part of being in love and being married. I had the perfect family. Or at least I thought I did. I had the stay at home mom who worked at home, the dad that traveled some times for his job We were the family you saw on TV. We went on family vacations and had the dog, the cat, the big house with a big back yard and a pool. THE DREAM FAMILY. Dream family my ass. Two people cant be in-love for 30 years, and then not. I don't get it! I still to this day, two years later don't get how it happened. I think being the only child at home at the time when shit happens is worse. When your mom comes up stairs and says that your dad is coming home and is going to be going away for awhile. I didn't get what she was talking about. I was confused. Until he did. He grabbed all his clothes and everything from THEIR closet. And I.....I stood at the bottom of the stairs in shock. I couldn't speak, not that I wanted to. And I couldn't cry. I remember just shaking in fear of the nightmare ahead. My dad would go back and forth from the closet to his car until he had everything all packed up in his car ready to go. The whole time he would walk right by me and not say a damn word or even look at me. I felt invisible. I felt like it was my fault for some reason that this was happening. When he was done packing, I walked to the front door as he got in his car. He looked back with tears in his eyes. I lost it. I fell to the ground crying. My nightmare was coming true…. He pulled away not even looking back. I ran back up the stairs to my room. My mom came in. I… I.. I wanted to hit her! I was so angry with everything and everyone. I looked up and she had tears running down her face. Why was she crying she did this! Then, I thought, maybe I did… It was my fault that this was happening. I thought if only I didn't change schools this would not have happened. I caused him to leave… Maybe if my brother or I did something different, maybe this wouldn't have happened. Can I be honest? I hade my mom and my dad for breaking off their marriage. I didn't want anything to do with them. They ruined our family! Both of them did it! I hated them, I wanted to run away and never come back. I wanted to wake up from this nightmare that I had just been thrown into. I wished I could have had a different family. A family that was perfect. That this didn't happen to, the mom and dad stayed together forever. My parents splitting up…. It all happened so fast. One minute we're a family… the next were not. No matter how old you are if this happens to you its just as hard. I knew exactly what was going on but I didn't want to. That was the hardest part, realizing that it was actually over. No more "perfect" family. I still to this day cannot say that I am completely okay with my parents decision to get a divorce. I don't think that I will ever be okay with this happening