Unknown Decisions: what do I do now?

From Todaycollegetour

So, I am really scared. I really don’t know what to do. (Pause)... So last weekend, a couple of my friends and I went out and, I know I am underage, but we were drinking and I think I may have had one too many, or you know drank them a little too fast cause I was definitely feeling them way before I should have been feeling them. You know usually I can last all night, but for some reason that didn’t happen last weekend. (PAUSE) Well so anyway, like I said we were out and walking around and I saw this guy who I had been talking to.

You know he seemed like a really nice guy, maybe a little more bad boyish than I normally go for, but that smile of his got me every time. It was like he was the only guy there and was looking only at me. Well you know we got to talking and he started moving closer and closer. Well I mean seriously, like anyone would stop someone as good looking as he was. So, you know he leaned in and our lips touched and it had been so long since I had really kissed anyone and it just felt so good. Well it sort of progressed from there and he kept whispering in my ear, wanting me to go farther and farther. It felt so good though I didn’t want to stop... Every voice in my head was screaming to stop, but I just couldn’t.... I woke up the next morning half naked in his room. He was lying beside me passed out. I quietly got up, got dressed and went back to my room. I laid back in bed and cried all day. I just couldn’t tell anyone what I had done, I was too ashamed.

What would they think of me? What did I think of myself? I was never that girl and now in one night I became that girl. What should I do?